Irish singer Sinead O’Connor has posted a concerning video online saying she is suicidal and living out of a $70-a-night Travelodge motel in New Jersey.
O’Connor, 50, posted the 12-minute video on Facebook last week revealing she was all by herself and fighting to stay alive every day.
‘I am now living in a Travelodge motel in the a**e end of New Jersey,’ she said while sitting on the motel room bed.
‘I’m all by myself. And there’s absolutely nobody in my life except my doctor, my psychiatrist – the sweetest man on earth, who says I’m his hero – and that’s about the only thing keeping me alive at the moment… and that’s kind of pathetic.
Irish singer Sinead O’Connor, 50, posted the 12-minute video on Facebook last week revealing she was all by herself a Travelodge motel in New Jersey.
‘I want everyone to know what it’s like, that’s why I’m making this video.
‘Mental illness, it’s like drugs, it doesn’t give a s**t who you are, and equally what’s worse, it’s the stigma, it doesn’t give a s**t who you are.
‘Suddenly all the people who are supposed to be loving you and taking care of you are treating you like s**t. It’s like a witch hunt.’
The troubled singer-songwriter said she was ‘fighting like all the millions of people’ battling a mental illness.
‘If it was just for me I’d be gone. Straight away back to my mum… because I’ve walked this earth alone for two years now as punishment for being mentally f**king ill and getting angry that no one would f***ing take care of me,’ she said.
‘I’m a 5’4′ little f***ing woman wandering the world for two years by myself.’
She also added that she had been hospitalized for kidney stones recently.
A woman staying at the motel told Page Six that O’Connor had been staying there for a week.
‘She had a hospital band on her wrist,’ the woman said.
The woman added that O’Connor kept to herself but ‘left her door wide open all week except at night’ and would often go to the Pepsi machine.
The guest, who hasn’t seen O’Connor since Friday, said the first time she saw the Irish singer she told her boyfriend: ‘That looks like an old Sinead O’Connor.
The footage immediately sparked fear among her fans.
‘I go to bed every night worried about you,’ one person wrote. ‘I wake up and tentatively log onto Facebook because of my worry for you.’
Another wrote: ‘To Sinead’s kids get over and help your mother, she is crying out for you all, forget what has happened and forgive, keep forgiving her until you get over there and give her a hug.’
O’Connor has spoken previously about how she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder more than a decade ago and has struggled with depression and post traumatic stress for years.
She told Oprah Winfrey in 2007 that before her bipolar diagnosis she had struggled with thoughts of suicide and overwhelming fear. She said at the time that medication had helped her find more balance, but ‘it’s a work in progress.’
O’Connor said in later interviews that she was misdiagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2011.
The mother of four sparked a police search in May last year when she failed to return from a bike ride in suburban Chicago.
O’Connor posted the address of the motel where she is staying on Facebook last week
About two hours after she left on the ride, a rambling message was posted on her official Facebook page that referred to emotional trauma she had been through over the years, prompting fears she had disappeared to take her own life.
She was found by police later that day at an unidentified hotel.
O’Connor, who is a mother to four children from different relationships, took to Facebook in 2015 to say she had taken an overdose at a hotel somewhere in Ireland. Irish police later said she had been found safe.
The next month, she posted on Facebook that she had been detained in a hospital for mental health evaluation.
Comedian Arsenio Hall dropped a $5million lawsuit against O’Connor earlier this year after she apologized and retracted comments she made on Facebook that he had supplied drugs to Prince.