Gospel singer Kambua is one strong woman in the eyes of most of us. Her faith has been tested in different ways.
Kambua got married to her husband pastor and businessman Jackson Mathu in 2012 and since then, she waited for seven years before she could hold her baby.
Speaking in a recent YouTube interview Kambua says as a believer, she got to a point her faith was tested and she was not always consistent in believing in what God could do.
“I did get to a place of complete defeat of, okay am out of options. I told God now, whatever it will be,” she said.
“I completely let go of trying to control the situation and completely knowing that it didn’t matter when God would do it and how he would do it. I didn’t know if it was going to be ten years later. But I am okay in you. Use me as I am.”
The mother of one says that although her baby came and she is happy about it, the biggest miracle was finding Kambua as enough in God.
“The baby came and hallelujah and I praise the Lord for that but for me, as Kambua the biggest miracle was finding Kambua as enough in God.”
She went to many hospitals and all answers were the same and frustrating.
“For many years we lived in the grey in the sense that any medical person we met and consulted we got very vague answers and that is one frustrating thing about the fertility journey, you meet specialists who told us there is nothing wrong, keep trying…”
“In Nov 2018 is when we finally got it in black and white and we finally knew this is the condition.
“It broke me in a way that I did not expect. I wanted to know but I wasn’t ready to know.”
Kambua recounts the days she visited her doctor and broke the news to her about her condition.
She had already given up in marriage and she says she was ready to release her husband so he could get children with another person.
“I remember, I was in my doctor’s office and she is such a God sent woman, she gave me the time to get together. We had done this so many times like I was probably expecting not a big deal answer kinda thing.”
She was alone and she called her husband who asked her where she was but Kambua says she lied to him that she was heading to the salon.
“He knew where I was going but I told him I am going to the salon. I got home and I was sobbing and showed him the resultsand I remember him saying, this is what the medical report has said? Okay but what has God said about us. He was so calm.”
Her husband loved kid all along and so the devil was speaking to Kambua to divorce him.
“The enemy spoke to me loudly that night that my husband needs another woman who can give him children and so when I get home, I am going to tell him its okay, ‘I release you to have children coz it is not fair for me to hold you back. So I had my little speech planned and he is here calmly telling me whose report will you believe,” she narrated.
Kambua added that after she told her husband about the medical report, they prayed and that was her moment of release.
“It was when I realised that Kambua can not do anything to fix it but God can in the way that He will.”
That was November 2018 and in December 2018, Kambua says she conceived.
“I remember, my doctor had told me to go back and discuss the options that I would use, I got positive pregnancy tests and she was like Kambua, your God is amazing.”
Kambua says her waiting journey was full of frustrations as some of her friends said insensitive things to her.
“I had people say things like you are rich, why can’t you go for IVF, very thoughtless and insensitive things from people I know and others I don’t know.”
(IVF In vitro fertilisation is a process of fertilisation where an egg is combined with sperm outside the body, in vitro. The process involves monitoring and stimulating a woman’s ovulatory process, removing an ovum or ova from the woman’s ovaries and letting sperm fertilise them in a liquid in a laboratory.)
Kambua welcomed her son in August last year.